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| I have recently came to the conclusion that I might possibly getting old. Well of course I am still in my teen years but I still feel like I am getting old. People always say that you need to charish the moments before you die. How can I possibly do that when my parents always ask me to do stuff according to their needs? Most of my life so far has revolved around doing chores and pleasing my parents. If I want to charish the time I still have while I am living then why do my parents feel to me like they are getting in the way? I want some answers. These questions always keep popping into my head. All I really want is a kind of relaxed life. I am always doing what my parents tell me to do and my sister is doing her best too. The children in my family always just want to make my parents happy. Not to sound cruel but I want to live my life according to how I want to. That does sound a bit cruel but I just want a life of my own. I really, really, really, REALLY, can't wait until I graduate. Once I do then I will be kind of free like a bird. Okay, so a bird atleast gets to fly anywhere without having to be told to call their parents once in a while. You see a bird actually leaves their family or parents when they are ready. I am kind of ready but at the same time I don't want to say that I am because then I feel like I might be cursed for saying that against my parents. Is it so bad to think like that? I am such a very superstitious person. Always want to please people or else I might get karma. I hear that there is a lot of that going around lately. There are many things that I want to change about my life. Right now as I am typing my second Random entry of the day, I am thinking whether I really do have a life. Am I a person who is destined to go live by my dreams or am I a person who is destined to live by what my parents think is right for me. Isn't that for me to decide my path? I am a really a religious person. I mean not fully committed to my religion but I really do believe that their is a God, and I know that he plans out my path. So really how am I suppose to know what path to take, the very boring path of what my parents want, or the path that is really adventurous and life thrilling, the one I really want to take. A big part of my decision of what path to take came mostly from my big sister. She too wants to take the same path as me. We have big dreams..... really big dreams that can soon take me and her places. | | |
| Today was the best day ever. Okay so the whole day I did nothing by just playing video games and watching Television. I really want to stay at my cousins house the whole time because I don't have to worry about anything. Today was also really hilarious because I was just being me. Right now I don't know really what to talk about because I just wanted to type. I know that it has been a long time since I have been on my Xanga. The main reason why I joined Xanga is because no one really cares what you say. No if I was on Myspace then people would read my stuff and comment. On my Xanga people will read my stuff but they won't really comment on what I have to say. OMG! Just the other day I was talking to this guy that I was really confused about. I think he might have some sort of feeling toward me but I could be going crazy. Okay so when ever I tell my sister that I am having a feeling that someone might like me you know what she says? "Well I think that maybe you might be just paranoid." Really? Am I being paranoid? Look all the signs are there, he hugs me every time he see's me, he listens to everything I say, and more. I can't really remember everything he does but he could possibly like me. Ahh, I am kinda confused about this situation though. When I think about this situation I would think about whether I like him or not. Maybe I do like him, but then again I couldn't like him because my best friend does not like him at all. She thinks he's very annoying. I really respect my friends decision and that is what confuses me. I think that I might be falling for him. So my other friends think that we make a good couple but then my best friend does not like him and she probably doesn't want me to date him. But then that might seem like she is controlling me. AHHHHHH. What to do? If you are reading this do comment about this, give me some good advice, no matter what gender you are because I am really having a hard time with this decision. AHAHAHAHAAHAAAA. I mean I really do take into thought about my friends feelings, like who they like and don't like. I mean I don't really like people unless they are very mean. I mean the the guy I might like is very sweet I mean to me, and he doesn't really interrupt me when I talk but he does interrupt my friends when they talk. He also takes into mind what I talk to him about. What to do what to do. I do want t say his name so badly but I am afraid that he might be reading this. Oh well I might be willing to give it a try, so what should I do? COMMENT PLEASE. And thank you for reading. subscribe to me or add me to your friends. Thankz again. :)
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Today was not boring but it was frustrating and fun at the same time. The normal for today was to go to my community service at the dentist clinic. Then at noon time I get picked up. I don't know if you have heard about the Jonas Brothers and their tour, but their tour stops over where I live at. This morning on the radio, when my sister was dropping me off for community service, the radio people announced that there was going to be a give away of Jonas Borthers tickets. I could not call because I am under the age of 18, but my sister was qualified to call in for the tickets. I asked my sister to call, but I was sort of joking. To my surprise she actually called in. I never noticed how determined she was to get these tickets for me. I'm not really a big fan of them, but I thought I should see them because they are coming to my town, and they occasionally stop by here and I never take an interest in meeting them or wanting to go see them. This time I thought, yeah this could be it where I should meet them. That's why I did kind of want the tickets to their concert. Anyways, the main point is that my sister tryed so hard to get those tickets. She tried so hard that she kept calling, and everytime she kept calling the people would say that the give away has not started yet. But not until my sister called them later, like around 9:30 a.m. The same lady that kept answering my sister from the previous calls answered her call once again. This time the lady said somthing different, she said "Sorry, but you have to be atleast 18 years old". Of course you have to be 18 years old or older, why else would my sister be calling you if she was not 18 or older. When the lady said that my sister replied, "Yeah I am over 18". The lady said in a sort of harsh voice "NO YOUR NOT", then she hung up. What? First of all, how do you know if she is over 18 or not? She only judged that by the sound of my sister's voice. Second of all, that lady did not even give my sister a chance to even give her proof that she is over 18. That is and unfair judgement. Third of all, why would she call if she is not 18 or older. That would be a very stupid thing to do. Would you call this an unfair judgement? | | |
| Dear Peeps, Today seemed like it was going to be a fun day but it really was not. In the morning I went to my community service and that was great. I did my usual routine of filing. Then after that, since I am a fast filer, I went to help this lady in the front desk. Man did she look like a busy lady for a person who is in front desk. She told me that I had to staple and put things together and file. I told her that I would rather just staple for now because to me stapling is really fun. I know that may seem really weird to some people. Anyways, when I was stapling I was looking at all the people who just got done with their checkups, and most of those people looked really happy, which means two things. One, the doctor is really good, and two, they are just happy that the appointment is over. I would rather go for number one. We have many patients where I do my community service. Out of all those patients some patients can be really grumpy. Take for instance today. There was this lady who was really mad AT THE DOCTER. When she talked to the receptionist she was all yelling at her because she did not receive this letter that was mailed to her house. Then the receptionist lady told her to go around back to the back desk. Man was that a bad plan, because when she walked to my desk where I do not work at, she yelled at me presuming that I was the person who made that mistake. Way to go to make a judgement. Man would I wish that that would really happen to me today. Okay so my day did not really go like that, but it was a bad day toward the end. My day at the office was really fun because I got to really do stapling. Usually at 12 o'clock I go home. Today that was the real time I left. When I got to the car my sister was sleeping. Now my day ended bad because of my sister. In the morning she was all grouchy and stuff, and I thought well maybe if she had some alone time by herself then she would be okay when I got back from community service. That was a bad judgement on my part. Most of the time I would know my sister, but today I was really off. Anyways, when I got to the car she was sleeping, then I knocked on the car window to tell her to open the door, and she did. When I go into the car she seemed ok, but when I started talking to her I could sense that she was still the same. I asked her if she wanted to go eat at Krazy buffet (which is this really good place to eat), but she said that she had no money. I was okay with that answer, it's just the way she said it. She would usually say that in a nice, calm, up beat voice. But this time her voice was really dull. After that I knew the right thing was to not talk to her the rest of the ride home, and I didn't. Once we arrived home I woke up to her tapping me on the but to wake up. But the tap was not really a tap, it was sort of a tap and a hit. I don't know how to explain that. But the tap really was not a tap. So I immediately woke up and speed walked to the door of our garage room. When I got to the door the door was locked. That was great, I was trying to do those walk away with a grumpy mood walks. I knocked on the door so my mom could open it, and she did like four seconds later, which looks really bad on my part. I was trying to make an impression to my sister that I was mad at her and the garage door is locked, that looks great on my part. As I got inside my mom noticed that I was very mad at my sister, I guess she could tell by the way I looked. When I told my mom that I was really mad at my sister she told me that I should not be because she is just probably stressed about her PRAXIS test that she has. I totally would understand that if my sister would have actually told me. If she would have told me then that would have mad my life much more healthier, than stressing out about her attitude. Now if she is not being nice because she does not want me to go near her then thats okay, just don't expect me to be nice to you after words. I would like it best if she would have told me she had a test but no she did not tell me. I did not even know that she had a test in the first place. URRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! Well got to finish the show that I am watching. PEACE AND LOVE TO YOU ALL>> CANT SAY THE SAME FOR MY SIS. | | |
| Have you ever watched those shows or movies that have a "Chosen One" in them? I bet you probably have or you have maybe even heard of them. Well I always wondered, what if that were to happen to people in real life? Like you actually get chosen to fulfill a greater purpose in life. When shows like Buffy, Legend of the Seeker, Harry Potter, etc. are made, they are made to be entertaining. But I wonder if this really does happen to people in real life? (Caution: to save more time you can read the part that applies to you. Girls can read the girls side and the boys can read the boys side. Not unless you have a lot of freetime and want to read everything.) Girls Read: Okay to elaborate more on this question, let's take a look on the show Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I'm not saying that vampires are real or not I'm just trying to think more about this question. Anyways, If you do not know what Buffy the Vampire Slayer is about I will tell you about it. It starts out with this girl named Buffy Summers. She moved to a town called Sunnydale because she started a fire in her old school, back in LA. Then in Sunnydale there is a guy named Rupert Giles. He is a watcher. The watcher is the one who trains and takes care of the slayer. So Rupert Giles poses as a librarian in Sunnydale High School (that is where Buffy attends school now). When Buffy goes to the library to pick up her books that is where she is told that she is the slayer. Well actually back in LA is when she found out that she was the slayer. Then when Giles notices that Buffy is the Slayer he shows her a book on vampires and such. Back in LA, as I recall in the show, Buffy finds out that she is the slayer from this old guy, then she later on gets trained on how to kill vampires and such. I'm just giving you a little bit of background knowledge on this show, just in case you don't know the show. My big question is, what if you were the one that was in Buffy's place. Would you be excited about being an important person who can defeat bad things or would you be like "Hey shut up because I want to live my life like a normal person"? Most people would say that they want to be like Buffy because she can fight, has superhuman strength, but what they don't really think about is that she has the weight of the world on her shoulders. Saving society on a daily basis is a heavy burden to carry. On the other hand some people really want to do that, I know that I would like to live and interesting life like that. Of course that is just my opinion. Boy's Read: Okay to elaborate more on this question, let's take a look on the show Legend of the Seeker. This is something that you can relate to because, this show is about a man named Richard Cypher (IDK if that is the right spelling of his last name) and he is suppose to save the Midlands from a horrible man named Darken Rhal (I don't know if that is how you spell that guys whole name). Some background information on this show is that Richard is chosen to kill all bad things that stand in his way or other words "Seek" out evil and vanquish it, in this case it is to kill Darken Rahl. To spoil the ending, he does kill the bad guy, if you did not know that. My big question is that, would you want to be in Richard Cypher's place? Maybe you might want to be him because the lady's will really like you, or you just really want to help save the world because you will feel really important. Yay. Well I would probably go with option two. I don't really have much to say for the guy's because I'm not a guy. But if you are a guy reading this comment for your opinion. MY OPINION SInce I'm a girl I will talk about the whole Buffy chosen one deal. If I were Buffy I would really want to be the slayer because to be honest I like feeling important to the world. I'm going to stop there because this is starting to become really long. I will add more once I get more thoughts in my mind about this question. | | |
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